That's about it.

In lieu of writing an actual post, I will just post this picture that I took a screen shot of- and then wrote the words in and sent to my friends.  

Because I'm cool like that.  Also because I figured out how to use the cool apps on my phone for that.  

I started watching through The Office again, but this time like it is a documentary of actual people, not hollywood actors. 

It's bananas.

Fighting

There is so much shit going on.  But there are good things too.  I find myself focusing on the bad, and not the good.  Maybe someday I will be more upbeat-  I don't think today is that day though.
I am enjoying summer.  But at the same time I am kicking myself for other reasons.  It's dumb.
That's really all today.

gasp

I'm post two days in a row.  Whatevs.

Autumn heard from Nick in the wee morning hours and he said he was ok.

I have so much going through my head.

I am so relieved that he is confirmed safe.

I am so very heartbroken for the families that missing one person.

This deployment has hit so very close to my heart.

I don't quite know how to express how I feel quite yet.

Hug your loved ones extra tight.

You don't know how blessed you are to have them close to you.

Radio Silence

There has been silence from this computer for some time.  I won't apologize for it.  Life is busy.

Right now though I need to let something out.

My sil came over yesterday to my 2nd house (aka my best friends house ((I'm babysitting while she is away on business))).  As soon as she came in the door I could tell something was wrong.  Her mom had literally just called her to say that there had been a Stryker that hit an IED  in the Kandahar Provence of Afghanistan.    This is where my brother, her husband, is currently deployed to and what is job is.  He drives a Stryker.  What was worse was there was a blackout of all communication with family so Autumn hasn't heard anything.  We had talked to my mom yesterday and didn't say anything about what was going on over there, but I talked to Autumn and told her we needed to let her know that all was not well.  And knowing that Autumn would have a break down if she tried to tell my mom something might be wrong, I was the one that had to call.

At this point it has been over 24 hours so we would have heard if my brother was one of the casualties.  There is the continuing communication blackout for all the soldiers so we will continue to be out of the loop.
But no news is good news.

As my mom said today, "I am relieved that we didn't get any visitors today with bad news, but but entire body hurts for those who have just gotten the visit that we are trying to avoid."

And that is exactly it.  We have made it through the waiting period, wondering if my brother was in that Stryker, but I don't want to rejoice too much because someone else's brother, son, husband, father was in there and has gotten a horrible visit from Army officials that will forever change their lives.

Please keep them in your thoughts, and if you pray, your prayers.

This is one of the only pictures we have gotten of my brother... he is the one in the middle and the Stryker is behind him.

A Story

Once upon a time there was a girl, a girl who entered the blogging world with every intention of doing crafts, taking pictures, cooking meals, couponing, and linking it all up and getting bazillions of followers.  (True story)
But then the girl realized, that all that structure of blogging and planning it out, made her cah-razy.  Seriously. There are a lot of things that make her that way, but blogging was at the top of the list.
That girl is still to lazy to figure out how to link up old posts and whatnot.  So she will continue to mention them without any link.  suck it internet.
Maybe someday when pinterest and facebook and words with friends and twitter and instagram and ruzzle and tv and slotomania and temple run become less interesting on her phone, she might actually write a real post.
You have to understand, she has writing that needs to be let out, but she is lazy.
Someday.
Someday, that will change.
Today, today is not that someday.

Bedtime

I have had an ideal of what my bedding would look like forever.  I know.  It's weird.  When I think of my grown up bed, I have always had a distinct idea of what I wanted.

Like this bed in Sound of Music.  Iron style bed frame, lots of pillows and fluffy blankets.

 This one in You've Got Mail.  Big pillows, fluffy duvet, writing on a laptop whilst in bed, lovely.
 This is what I have ended up with.  Fluffy blankets at the foot of the bed... fluffy pillows.  Iron style bed frame.  That tray is for my laptop.  I think I've finally done it!  I guess that means I'm a grown up now though.  Dang it.

The bed frame is from Ikea, as are both of the down comforters, and the two giant pillows at the back.  The pink blanket is from Target, as is the tray.  The toille is from tjmaxx via my friend that decided she didn't want it any more and the grey sheets are from Kohls.

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I hate new years.  For the simple reason that I don't like the whole making resolutions nonsense.  But I want to make resolutions, but I never know what to resolute.  Is that a word?  It is now.
I get slightly down reading/listening to people wax on about how they completed their 2012 resolutions and making more for 2013.  But I am also happy for them for being able to complete their goals.
Mayhaps someday I will have it together enough to make resolutions.  Right now, not so much.


Sometime in November I thought of something that would be a good resolution, but I can't remember it.  Drat.

15,342,368.678

That is about how many post I have running through my head.
The amount I will actually write?
Unknown.
Things on my mind right now:
- my fingernails are coming off - from a combo o acrylic nails and too much nail polish... I am looking into solutions
- my next semester is annoyingly empty... Several reasons, stories later
- definitely cried in Christmas
- my brother is in Afghanistan
- there are more things but the Internet should only have so many crazies venting on it, not that I'm crazy.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!